Monthly Archives: January 2016

It’s My Birthday

Yep.  It’s my birthday.  I actually woke up this  morning and had forgotten that it was my birthday until my husband reminded me.  Maybe I wanted to forget.  After all, there’s nothing special about 43.  At 41 and 42, I could still imagine that I was fresh out of my 30s.  But at 43, I am well entrenched in my 40s, only inches away from 45 which is half way to 50 which is half way to death.  My son called me middle aged the other day and I suppose I am.  But I always thought of middle age as being in the 50s to 60s.  Though, if I do the math, none of us are living into our 120s these days.

I’m not doing anything special today.  My family gave me their cards and gifts last night, wonderful homemade cards from my sons – one of which said I was “old” and the other which said that I was “not old”.  My oldest just thinks he’s being funny but age will come back to bite him in the butt one day.  My youngest is just trying to make me feel better.  Today, I am home on my day off, doing the usual errands and activities.  Tonight I have a Board meeting to attend. Whoop!  Whoop!

Okay, I shall make a list of the good things about being 43.  Here goes…

  1. I am not stupid, like I was in my teens and 20s.
  2. I am a mom to two amazing boys who bring smiles to my face every day.
  3. I have a wonderful husband and don’t have to do the whole dating scene thing.
  4. I’ve learned to not care too much what other people think of me.
  5. I have the confidence to speak my mind, even if my opinions are unpopular.
  6. I have grown comfortable with my midsection, having stretched a little to grow those two amazing boys.
  7. I am devoting more time to my creative side.
  8. Every new year gives me experiences that help me understand and sympathize better with my patients.
  9. I have found a new common ground with my parents.
  10. I am not stupid, like I was in my teens and 20s.

Well, there you go.  I am grateful to be alive.  I am grateful for good health.  I am grateful for amazing friends and family.  I am grateful that I get to pursue my passions in life.  I am truly a lucky 43 year old.  Happy Birthday to me!

I Took a Walk

The first real snow of winter… its beauty stole my attention from whatever errand I was running that day. The light reflecting off the snow was a beacon, directing me toward solitude and peace. I pulled the car into the parking lot. I shut off the engine and my distractions and sat quietly for a moment, soaking up the last bit of warmth from my car and gazing at the wintry scene that lay before me. The ground was blanketed in white. Very few footsteps disturbed the snow. It was early still. Another week and the snow would be worn to earth by sleds and skis and snowshoes.

I stepped out into the cold, crisp air.   Showers of snow fell from the tree ahead of me, crystals dancing across the light breeze, caught in the light of the rising sun. I walked toward the pond, remarking as I went how a fresh coating of snow can make anything seem light and pure. Old, dilapidated houses, lit up by twinkly white lights and a dusting of snow, suddenly looked beautiful and serene.

Along the path to the pond were looming lampposts. A worn green veneer, covered in snow, recalled a time since past – a time of radio shows and model Ts, a time of simplicity and innocence. It was quiet out and the world was still. People were just rising from the warmth of their beds, covers pulled high. The sound of snow crunching beneath my feet was the only break in the silence.

At the pond, I veered left and walked to the hillside where a path ran along the length of the park. It was a favorite place for runners in the summer time. But right then, in the early winter morning, there was just me. I paused to gaze at the sun as it rose behind the hillside. The giant evergreens cast long shadows across the snow. The sun twinkled through their flocked branches.

Life these days is fast paced and full of distractions. I try to remember to slow down once in a while, to live in the moment, and to appreciate what is around me. This day, I did just that. I took a walk and enjoyed the world that lay before me, a world that never ceases to amaze me with its beauty and grandeur.